There was a sound, Alicia's mouth took in a big gulp of air, and she went up and up.
It's this place again. Basically giving up, Alicia looked at the bottom of the dark water. Soon, a blood-shimmering orange flame enveloped the area. The cry of the revolution echoes with the movement of the rising flame. I don't want to. This is my limit. Having curled her small body, Alicia clutched her ears tightly. I drove the fear and anxiety to the bottom of my chest and tried to smile. I tried to force my body and mind, to confront the future, and stand on my feet. However, memories of my previous life hunt me down as if it laughed at my misfortune. It frustrates her heart, saying that her efforts were futile, and the future remains the same. How many times will this despair be repeated? I wonder how many times I can get out of this despair. I hear a sound, and the feet of someone standing in front of me entered my field of view. When I got up and looked up, Clovis Cromwell looked down at me, his eyes as cold as that night. Unlike every night, Alicia's heart was not smothered with fear. Instead, it was “pain” that hit Alicia's chest. "Hey, Clovis. Why did you kill me?” To the question of Alicia, without moving even a centimeter of his beautiful face, the man silently looked back at the Princess. Alicia saw that his purple eyes, which were staring into her eyes with apathy, reflected her distorted crying face "You still hate me enough to want to kill me?"” ※Clovis Point of View To prevent my sleeping mistress from being awaken, I closed the door gently behind my back, and quietly walked through the room. It was the first time I was in her bedroom, but the big canopy was obvious in the room, so there was no work to approach the bed even in the dark. He approached her slowly so as not to make a sound, and when standing on her side revealed his mistress’s figure, his chest ached and tightened. Even in such darkness, the face of the princess was pale. Because she is lying down without groaning or making a sound, the illusion that she would go to a deep sleep like this springs up. (Lady Alicia……) She's a strange Princess. Even though she is undeniably a noble, she is never arrogant about it. The fact that she is a princess of a country sometimes makes me forget. I am still strangely aware that I am still in the position of being Princess Alicia’s aide. For the first time I saw her, I had a vague conviction that the world I lived in was different from that of Alicia. A blue rose in bloom in Heilland, where the love of her father the king is poured into this one body. With her loveliness, the beautiful princess will captivate regardless of her subjects. It was just like the opposite of me. Zach Graham, the great sinner who made the Queen a traitor. The portraits were all burned as it was ominous, but it was a famous story that he had black hair and unusual purple eyes that he had handed over to the Graham family for generations. Clovis, who had taken over the appearance of the guilty man, was alienated even by his blood relatives. His mother, in particular, was extremely reluctant to put Clovis in her field of vision, which reminded her of the shame of the family, and ordered her servants to keep him away. That's why he decided to study and practice swordplay in search of what would become his weapon. Fortunately, Clovis was more skilled than others, and with his extraordinary efforts, he advanced to where he graduated from the Royal Academy at the top. Nevertheless, neither his parents nor his blood relatives could see Clovis. In addition, the more Clovis was outstanding, the more they kept an eye on his origin and tried to look down on him. I had to give up. For the rest of my life, I can't escape the sin of Zach Graham. "I command you as the princess. Clovis, serve me.” Therefore, when his hand was seized by the Princess, Clovis doubted his eyes that he might be looking at an illusion. Her eyes were as clear as the sky on a clear day, and she looked at Clovis without hesitation. The dignified appearance in his eyes in the strong light and standing in the hands of Clovis as if to show the way was too noble and beautiful. As soon as I noticed, I was kneeling on the spot. As I felt my heart filled with joy and happiness, I felt my back trembling from my determination. I was born to serve her. I must serve Princess Alicia with all my heart. (Alicia, I was saved by you that day.) While watching the child's sleeping face, which was distressed and distorted in pain, I sat in a chair beside her. While wishing that her suffering would be reduced, I realized that I was so helpless and could not be of use. Neither the night that I had a fever, nor the night that I cried alone without receiving love from anyone, there was no one in my life who would comfort me by my side. Because it all already happened in the past, I do not intend to hurt my heart about it now. However, when I see the girl suffering in front of me, I think I should have learned about the technique of soothing a person who is suffering. Then I saw the hand of the Princess twitching, searching for something. After a little hesitation, I wrapped her little hand gently with mine. Alicia grabbed Clovis’s hand which could have been a whim. In the unseen darkness of the room, the shining Princess reached out to Clovis who was wandering alone for a helping hand. I can't save her like that, thought the aide. ―――- “Don't suffer, dear Alicia. You’re the only one I care for.” Without realizing it, Clovis was trying desperately to recite words of prayer for Alicia. ~~~~~~~ Heyo~ Ahhhh I really can’t take pronouns ^^”” figuring how the perspective of the story is confusing >< This just reminds me when I’m trying to figure out French pronouns from class. Chinese pronouns too when speaking lol. Pronouns… whyyyy… yyyyyyy… Anyway… that’s my small ramble lol, sorry for any mistakes, and next chapter is a juicy one ^^ ~~~ Next Chapter
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Alice
4/7/2019 03:53:05 am
Thank you for the chapter
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Nayfa
4/7/2019 03:55:25 am
Thank you for chapter 😜😜😜
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Abbie
4/7/2019 10:13:19 am
Thanks for the chapter! Aww, how sad. I have to admit, I've read a lot of "reincarnation"/"rewind" type stories where characters get a second chance. No matter how horribly they were treated or betrayed, they usually don't have realistic symptoms of PTSD. It is really interesting to see that used as an element in this story. I hope Clovis will be able to impress his loyalty and dedication to her. At this point I think he's really different from the him who felt entirely betrayed by the nobility.
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F_J
4/7/2019 11:27:25 am
For a second there I thought Alice was talking to the Clovis who entered her bedroom and I was like noooo !!! But then that wasn't it so phew.
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